Well, I have to play a little catch up again. I spent most of the last three days being incredibly sick. Pretty much lying in bed whining and doped up on as many pain killers as my little body could take. That sounds so lame to me. Here I am praying with people all the time and seeing them healed and this stupid sinus infection takes over my life. I had fought this foul disease for nearly two weeks. Finally it seemed as though it had defeated me. I lay in my bed all hot and feverish. My teeth hurt, my head hurt, it felt like someone had punched me in the face.
I prayed. I had other people praying. In fact I had been praying for the last two weeks and just when it seemed to be getting better - I had gotten my voice back, I could breathe through my nose, etc - the WORST of it hit. How does that happen??? I mean seriously???? How does that HAPPEN!?!?!?!
I even allowed myself to think for a second that I had done something to remove God's covering from my life which allowed me to get sick. This is a dangerous thought. I could go into all the dimensions of sin that this thought involves, but I won't. I had allowed myself to be deceived into the fact that if I did everything right then I would never be sick and nothing bad would ever happen to me. Unfortunately that is just not true. It is almost as bad as saying that we can be good enough to get in to Heaven.
I would like to say that I found a solution to this on Friday, but I didn't. I went to bed and took some amazing medication that helped me sleep until eleven o'clock the next morning!
So for the people who are out there suffering with sickness or disease and you believe for your healing and it doesn't happen... Don't give up. Don't buy the lie that it is because you committed some horrible sin. Don't let anyone tell you that you aren't being healed because you don't have enough faith.
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